Saturday, October 24, 2009
Is this real life?
It’s so weird to be here for six weeks, and to know this is my life for much longer. It’s good, but hard to imagine. I feel constantly disconnected from everything—I skype with people, and see their faces, but I feel like I’m stuck in space or lost in some time-vortex. I feel like it’s not real. BUT IT IS. Russia may feel like a dream, but it’s real life and it’s happening to me, and people at home are having real life too. This year will go by before I know it, and all of a sudden 10 months of this huge experience happened to me, and I missed out on 10 months of life lived with the people I love the most. I don’t know how I feel about this, but I know suddenly it’s true and I need to face it.
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Uh...were you reading my journal?
ReplyDeleteHeather!
ReplyDeleteI have these exact thoughts every day.
also, we should skype sometime soon, ok?
i feel like this currently after 3 months in korea. this is why i dont want anyone to change..blah. but that cant happen so now i listen to this sermon about change, think about listening to how god whats to change me and not how i want to change, and try to feel glad the people i love/miss are probs doing the same. and i think about how god doesnt change. ptl. i miss heavy.
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